ALL YOUR DREAMS ARE OVER NOW.

Thu, 10 May 2007 18:11:50 GMT

FUCK FUCKING BOYS GOD FUCKING DAMNIT.

okay, so. i sent chad this message on myspace and i was like

you're a fucking asshole, i hope you know.

you couldn't have called me and been like,

"hey hannah, this isn't working out." or,

"hey hannah, i like someone else."

but no, you just had to be a fucking pussy about it.

so, FUCK YOU. basically.

and he replied

and his response was

"yep, fuck me."

fucking asshole. omg.

well fuck.

Fri, 20 Apr 2007 16:33:25 GMT

indeed. i'm going downhill fast.

i don't know what to do.

there's nothing i can do.

my medicene isn't working.

there's a delusion that i'm living in my own world that i've created.

i don't even know if i beleive in god anymore.

i'm dating someone who doesn't understand.

why am i dating him?

because i don't know what else to do.

all he ever says is "i'm sorry"

why doesn't he have anything else to say?

why does he says i love you if he doesn't mean it?

why do i say it when i don't mean it?

i mean, i mean it, but not like that.

i love him as a person.

i just don't know if i can truflully say "i love you" in a romantic setting.

i have to work today. on fucking 4/20. god fucking damnit. i'll probably just end up at home after work doing nothing....playing my stupid fucking nintendo. i don't even care.

i don't even care anymore.

whatup.

Thu, 01 Mar 2007 20:00:31 GMT

so i know i haven't written in here for over a year, and that's sad.

my life hasn't changed all that much.

my parents are still being lame.

boys are still being lame.

school is still being lame.

everything is still being lame.

bitchezzzz

Mon, 06 Feb 2006 23:33:38 GMT

WHATUP

i can't write for long because i'm at the library and i wasted most of my time on myspace because i'm lamee liike that.

anywhoo..........i dont really have anything specific to say...uh,. yeah. i'm really bad at school.

wish i had a computer. and my ipod.damnit. i hate my dad.

cheers. x<3

Tue, 06 Dec 2005 19:07:24 GMT

so i'm back.

at my gramma's.

homeless

call for details. <3<3<3

i'm worse at what i do best...

Thu, 17 Nov 2005 10:47:06 GMT

so it's 5:42 AM. i just finished my personal narrative. and i think it SUCKS COCK.

but you know whatever. it's not even close to the due date.

I'M SO DAMN WEIRD.

cunt.

Tue, 15 Nov 2005 22:24:59 GMT

ME AND LEAHFACE GOT
HITCHED/MURRIED/SEXWHENEVERWEWANT

TODAY!!!!11

we took disposable camera pictures & wore tacky beautiful hats.
leah gave me a heineken beer bottle cap necklace and i gave her a ring. ;] it's gorgeous and i'm wearing it for the rest of my life.
Our wedding song was lau by bright eyes. muahahahaha!!

gorgeous. now we are off to the reception!!!

Mon, 14 Nov 2005 03:11:33 GMT

WISH LIST.
(if any of you care...)

http://www.hottopic.com/store/product.asp?LS=0&M=482316533&ITEM=231062&RN=110 size 36B
http://www.hottopic.com/store/product.asp?LS=0&M=482316533&ITEM=213987&RN=110 size 36B
http://www.hottopic.com/store/product.asp?LS=0&M=482316533&ITEM=345326&RN=117 size 8
http://www.oneangrygirl.net/order.html "fuck your facist beauty standards" tshirt size L

so if you were wondering what i wanted for xmas, there's somestuff. ;]

i am such a crap photographer....honestly.

Thu, 10 Nov 2005 00:28:50 GMT

my messy room beats yours so bad, omg.
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pretty colors.

sunsets are my middle name.

so yeah. //end

because today has sucked.

Mon, 31 Oct 2005 21:45:31 GMT

[1] NAME: Han-nan-ah
[2] BIRTHDAY: June 4th
[3] SHOE SIZE: 9
[4] EYE COLOR: Green/yellow
[5] HAIR COLOR: blonde/purple/blue
[6] HITCHHIKED: Huh-uh.
[7] DONE DRUGS: Everyday?
[8] BEEN ON STAGE: NOPE
[10] BEEN DUMPED: PLENTY
[11] GOTTEN INTO AN ACCIDENT: Car accident? no.
[12] EATEN AN ENTIRE BOX OF SWEETS: HAHA LIKE TONIGHT?
[13] DYED YOUR HAIR: Numerous times
[14] CHOKED INFRONT OF SOMEONE: Everytime.
[15] WENT TO SCHOOL IN YOUR PJ'S: mostly.
[16] GOTTEN DETENTION: Lots.
[17] LIKED SOMEONE SO MUCH THAT MADE YOU CRY: not until they broke up with me
[18] DO YOU LIKE SOMEONE RIGHT NOW: Yes.
[19] DO THEY KNOW: i hope.
[20] WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN THE OPPOSITE SEX: a lot of things.
[22] COLD / HOT: mostly cold, but right now i'm hot.
[23] BLACK / WHITE: both
[24] RAIN / SNOW: Rain. in the summer. Snow in the winter. duhh.
[25] GIVE / RECEIVE: Give
[26] WOOL / COTTON: Both
[27] ROSE / DAISY: Daisy
[28] PRIVATE / PUBLIC SCHOOL: Public
[29] PLAIN / CHOCOLATE MILK: CHOCOLATE. or strawberry. mmmmm.
[30] HISTORY / SCIENCE: NEITHER, ew.
[31] MATH / ENGLISH: English.
[32] SPRING / FALL: Fall.
[33] ROCK / COUNTRY: not country
[34] PEPSI / COKE: Coke.
[35] LOVE / LUST: both.
[36] EAT / SLEEP: uhhhhh it varies

--------------------------------FRIENDS--------------------------------
[37] WHO DO YOU SEE THE MOST: Leah, Kelsey & Courtney.
[38] WHO DO YOU WISH TO SEE MORE OFTEN: Kayla, Ryan, Cassidy, Aaron, everybody
[39] WHO DO YOU E-MAIL THE MOST: no one.
[40] WHO'S THE LOUDEST: kayla/kelsey
[41] WHO'S THE SHYEST: allison
[42] WHO ARE YOU JEALOUS OF: alot of people
[43] WHO GOTS THE BEST ROOM: Cassidy
[44] WHO'S THE HORNIEST: everybody...hahahha
[45] WHO DO YOU TRUST THE MOST: hmm...i dunno
[46] WHO KNOWS YOU THE BEST: NO ONE. [cassidy]
[47] WHO'S YOUR BEST FRIEND(s): Cass
[48] WHO DO YOU HAVE SERIOUS TALKS WITH: Cassidy...mostly.
[49] WHO GETS ALONG W/ YOUR PARENTS: Psh, no one. They don't even get along with themselves.
[50] WHO HUGGED YOU THE MOST: everyone.
[51] WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST: Cassidy
[52] FOUGHT W/ YOU THE MOST: Err....No one really....
[53] WHO ARGUES W/ YOU THE MOST: Ryan
[54] FAVORITE FRIENDS OF THE OPPOSITE SEX: i dunno
[55] IS MOST LIKELY TO BECOME A MODEL: O_o i don't think anyone wants to be a model.
[56] HAVE KNOWN YOU THE LONGEST: Cassidy.
[57] DO YOU KNOW MOST ABOUT: Cassidy

----------------------DO YOU LIKE TO:---------------------------------------
[58] GIVE HUGS: yes. yes.yes.
[59] GIVE BACK RUBS: Yes
[60] TAKE WALKS IN THE RAIN: When it's warm. yes.
[61] WATCH TV: sometimes.
[62] GO TO THE BEACH: yes.
[63] DO HOMEWORK: LOLZ good one.
[64] PLAY IN THE SNOW: hehe yes.
[65] WORK OUT: HELL. NO.
[66] TALK ON THE PHONE: sometimes.
[67] STAY UP ALL NIGHT TALKIN TO A FRIEND: Yeeesss.
[68] GO ONLINE: hello, everyday.
[69] BE LOVED: who doesn't?
[70] DO WEIRD / FREAKY THINGS: HAHA yes.
[71] BE WILD: mostly. >_>

--------------------HAVE YOU EVER:----------------------------------
[72] BEEN TO A CONCERT: yes.
[73] BEEN OUT OF STATE: Yeepp.
[74] GONE SKINNY DIPPING? 3 times.
[75] RAN ROUND NAKED: favorite hobby.
[76] BROKEN A BONE: nope.
[77] CHEATED ON A TEST: yep.
[78] RAN A MARATHON: Never.
[79] MET A FAMOUS PERSON: don't think so...
[80] BOUGHT SOMETHING AND SOLD IT: probably.
[81] STOLE FROM SOMEWHERE: mulitiple times.
[82] STALKED SOMEONE: hahahaha kindof.

---------------------------YOUR LOVE LIFE:----------------------------------
[84] IF YOU WERE TO GO OUT WITH ANYONE, WHO?: ryan?!
[85] HAVE YOU EVER HAD AN ONLINE RELATIONSHIP?: yes, i have lots of internet friends.
[86] LONGEST RELATIONSHIP: 3-4 months.
[87] LAST PERSON YOU KISSED: ryan

---------------------------EXTRA EXTRA:---------------------------------------
[88] BAD HABITS: smoking, cutting, arguing, yelling, grinding my teeth
[89] MAKES YOU MAD: Smart people that do dumb things, annyoing people, stupid people, people in general.
[90] SCARIEST THINGS: murder instruments.
[91] WHERE ARE YOU: sitting by my open door because it's hot.
[92] ARE YOU WEARING ANY JEWLERIES: My butterfly ring & the bracelets that never come off.
[93] LAST TIME YOU SHOWERED? i don't remember. oh yeah, yesterday.
[94] WHAT COLOR ARE YOUR PANTS: plaid
[95] WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?: Half Jack - Dresden Dolls
[96] LAST THING YOU SAID: "because i didn't go to school today."
[97] COMPUTER DESK IS MADE OF: i dunno, some type of stuff
[98] LAST THING YOU ATE: Cherry yogurt
[99] WHAT YOU REALLY WANNA DO RIGHT NOW: change clothes & eat candy. watch scurry movies with someone.
[100] WHAT COLOR OF CRAYON WOULD YOU WANNA BE: jungle green

dayum, photography = BOREDOM!!!

Thu, 27 Oct 2005 13:21:11 GMT

1) Do you still talk to the person you had your first kiss with?
yesssss i do.

2. What would you do with 1,000 plastic spoons?
throw them on my floor and then step on them in the night and break my feet.

3. What kind of music did you listen to in elementary school?
BACKSTREET BOIZ.

4. What is the best thing about your current job?
don't have one.

5. Do you wish cell phone etiquette was required ?
no

6. Are you against same sex marriage?
no

7. Have you been on a date in the past week?
nnnnnnnnnnnnnope

8. Where are you going on your next vacation?
uhhh.....nowhere

9. Quote a song lyric...
take me as a fool, and i'll do the same for you

10. Are most of the friends in your life new or old?
new.

11. Do you own any furniture from Ikea?
don't think so

12. Do you like your parents?
i like my mom sometimes, but not really my dad.

13. Do you still live with them?
yeaah.

14. What state/country are you from?
KY/USA

15. Tell us about the last conversation you had?
all of the damn weasleys have red hair.

16. Where do you see yourself in one month?
either doing better, or in the hospital.

17. What is your favorite smell?
PATCHOULI/sandalwood

19. Do you consider yourself bi-polar?
i am diagnosed with bi-polar.

20. What is the time and the outside temperature at the moment?
9:12 AM, fuckin cold.
21. Have you ever done anything vindictive to your coworkers?
i've never had coworkers

22. Have you ever gone to therapy?
i'm still going

23. Have you ever Played Spin the Bottle?
yes

24. Have you ever Toilet Papered someone's house?
nope.

25. Are you flexible?
hell no

26. Have you ever gone camping?
many times.

27. Have you ever had a crush on your sisters friend?
i don't have a sister.
28. Have you ever been to a nude beach?
nopes

29. Have you ever had sex on the beach?
nope.

30. Have you ever had a stalker?
yes.

31. Have you ever gone skinny dipping?
twice.

32. Have you ever laughed so hard you cried?
too many times to count.

33. Have you ever gone to a party where you were the only sober one?
ummmm i haven't been to any/many parties.

34. Have you ever been cheated on?
yes

35. Have you ever had sex with one of your myspace friends?
no

36. Have you ever felt betrayed by your best friend?
yes

37. Have you ever felt like you were just completely rhino raped?
no...not really.
38. Have you ever lied to your parents?
every day

39. Have you ever been out of the US?
no

40. Have you ever thrown up from working out?
not from working out....from heat exauhstion

41. Have you ever gotten a haircut so bad that you wore a hat for a month straight?
no....i don't like wearing hats for more than a few days

42. Have you ever eaten 3 meals from 3 different fast food places in 1 day?
probably.

43. Have you ever gotten so wasted you didnt know what was going on?
no.

44. Have you ever spied on someone you had a crush on?
kindof?

45. Have you ever met someone you only know through myspace?
ummm probably

46. Have you ever slept with one of your coworkers?
i don't have any coworkers

47. Have you ever seen your best friend naked?
yep!

i hate school

Wed, 19 Oct 2005 13:12:17 GMT

so i'm in photograohy.

i'm sick, i feel like shit, and there's a million projects due in here that i have no idea what's going on.
i decided at 12:50 last night my bed wasn't working and i went to go sleep in the bathtub. so that was great. that got old so i slept in the recliner. so then i had another bad dream. i was in a deserted carnival at night, blaring lights and all the crazy music and shit. then this little boy comes off the ferris wheel with a pistol. i'm like "woah, run away" and he's like "i don't think so bang bang bang"

so i'm watching the bullets eat through my skin, blood everywhere. he shot me something like 5-6 times. in the chest twice, in the stomach, in the arm and in the leg. i can see the ligiments and tissue of everything, i can see my heart pulsing, i can see my intestines. i pull out the bullets and then i get turned inside out.

and then i wake up and try to make something resembling peach cake...or something....it's 5:00, i'm tired, i'm sick, & i have to be on time for school.

i watched the lost world or something on TNT with really bad special effects and hiliarious dialouge & acting.
i came to school. atleast people i love are here. like kelsey. and kerry. and leah. and courtney. and ryan. and and and ETC.

i killed a muppet.

Tue, 11 Oct 2005 13:44:03 GMT

I'M IN PHOTOGRAPHY WITH pourqueestoy

i missed the lockdown drill because i was late for school and they wouldn't let me in so i had to stay in the car with my mo for like 30 minutes and listen to her act like a therapist, ew. &&& the black police officer was all like OMG WTF DON'T GO IN THER EKLSJDFLJKSELFKJSLFKJLEK!!!!!!111

then i went in and and and and i now have like 15/16 tardies. KELSEY HAS A LIVE JOURNAL OMFOMFOMFOMOGMOGMOGMOGMGOGMOMG. she is pourqueestoy. ^^^

the toilet was singing to mollli. ANDY MILONKUS.

SO UM KELSEY IS WEARING HARRISON'S GLASSES AND SHE LOOKS GANGSTARRR.

she said that they make my boobs look bigger. and everything else.

i need a haircut.

i don't like pollution. because i have to write a stupid fucking paper about it.

we are all going to shave our heads. BAHAHAHAHAHA.
for 5 dollars.

YAY.

not cut out for the solitary life.

Sat, 08 Oct 2005 17:18:41 GMT

So I'm realizing that maybe I'm not so fucked up. I'm learning the world caters to "vanilla" kids. & i'm strawberry. [nothing racial meant.]
We're in the process of getting a 504 plan at school so it'll be a little easier. the things we're asking for goes like this:

-leniency on getting to school in the morning
-reduced h/w
-getting isolated during tests

so that's all we have so far. but there's gonna be a meeting or soemthing soon. with the cool lady with insane blonde hair. :]
Anyways.

I don't know what i want to be for halloween. :\ i was thinking maybe marla singer. yeah. i think i want to be marla singer. :]

not speaking prince, now are you?

Thu, 06 Oct 2005 01:28:26 GMT

basically.

i don't know.

eric needs to stop doing drugs.

my dad needs to realize that just because he thinks the only person he's hurting is himself, he's fucking wrong.

people just need to leave me the fuck alone so i can figure things out for myself. i don't want or need your goddamn help. alright?
i'm fucking 15 and i'm sick of getting treated like i don't know anything. i know. i just may do things that make it look like i don't know. when really, the fact is I DON'T FUCKING CARE.

fairytales tell tales

Tue, 04 Oct 2005 22:09:27 GMT

so.

i'm suspended tommorow for tardies. wwwwwooooo. well, atleast that means i can put off my math homework another day. unfourtunatly it also means that life is going to hell. detention on thurs. & saturday detention this week. great stuff to look forward to, i'm telling you.

the alien baby in my stomach is slowly devouring my interior. it's so pleasant, omg you don't even know.

and i'm becoming fat regardless of this fact.

what the hell.

i could hardly get out of bed

Mon, 03 Oct 2005 23:06:03 GMT

sucess! your soul has just been deleted.

yaaay. :]